Today I celebrate 🎉
++ yes I got myself a balloon (a month ago in fact 😵)
because I’m real damn proud of myself. 😎
1/2 a FRANKin’ YEAR!! 🤩🙌🏼🖤 I can’t even begin to tell you all the positive changes my life, mind, heart + soul have felt over these last 184 days. The light + abundance is real.
I’m thankful for each day I get to feel all the things and this is just the beginning.
Long before I decided to finally put down the Tito’s bottle for the last time, I followed sober instagrams, lived by Pinterest quotes and read so many blogs on being Sober, getting sober and combatting alcohol abuse.
I have always been a if they can do it, I can do it too person and with my sobriety, its been no different.
I wanted the control, the healthy skin glow, the change, the LIGHT.
I wanted to celebrate instead of feel shame, I wanted to wake up hangover free and be present in my boys daily lives. I wanted ALL sober life could bring and I only knew that was possible because others before me showed me so.
So today I post another look at me living my best Sober life because I know there’s another mama deep in the trenches, in that closet with yet another empty bottle. I do it for her in hopes one day she can feel strong enough to do this too.
When I gave up drinking I was fearful to share, a HUGE part of my story is leaving my abusive and drug addicted ex. I feared people could use my alcohol use as an excuse for why my life had taken the turn it did. But daily I remind myself they have no idea what it’s like to live with someone who you fear, who makes you want to hide, who takes your basic needs and confidence away daily. Only those who have been forced to sleep with a monster will understand what it takes to cope and for those I share. It’s ok to have your own weakness and darkness. Shame and fear only feed the monster you’re trying to survive. So speaking up is the only way and although it makes me raw and vulnerable I know I’m helping so many. Today, I share + celebrate again.
Happy 6 months to me!