a little bit of sunshine & a whole lot of love

It’s amazing what a little bit a sunshine + whole lotta love will do for a girl. 😌🖤✨✨✨⁣ Today 3 years ago we got the keys to a beautiful bright home with hope that yet another game of make believe will finally make life ok. ⁣⁣Less than 45 days later my dad and brother wereContinue reading “a little bit of sunshine & a whole lot of love”

I wish I could tell her.

Wish I could tell her. ⁣Wish I could warn her. ⁣⁣You really think this is it.⁣⁣It’s not. ⁣⁣RUN. ⁣🖤⁣🖤⁣🖤⁣⁣ Not even 6 weeks later he beat me up so horrifically in that beautiful kitchen, I still get flashbacks and have a hard time with the memories. ⁣⁣2 weeks after that the blood from my faceContinue reading “I wish I could tell her.”

grant yourself kindness

This is one of the hardest parts of living so long in a toxic and abusive relationship. Years later and I still have this inner feeling that’s so critical and defensive. I have to calm my constant state of proving myself worthy to be loved or wanted. When you’ve been abused and abandoned by theContinue reading “grant yourself kindness”

Fukuna MatataGuy!

Testing. Testing. 2019. 🗣 If I haven’t been tossed and thrown through the emotional ringer the last couple weeks.Ouch. 🤕🤯😤 Nothing is harder than dealing with the tough shit while simultaneously being tough for the little humans around me. One day they will know ALL there is to know but today is not that day.Continue reading “Fukuna MatataGuy!”

Donut Worry, Be Happy.

I’m a cryer. I cry when I’m excited, sad, mad, happy etc etc. #alltheemotions I had taken a happier selfie but then I had a moment. A moment when my eyes filled with tears and my brain and body was overwhelmed with anxiety and fear. A moment that can be paralyzing for me. Why this happens exactlyContinue reading “Donut Worry, Be Happy.”

Put a little Neosporin on it.

Sooo after my ex almost killed me smashing his head to mine repeatedly he told me to put a “little Neosporin on it”. Like that actually happened. Minutes after seeing me bloody and broken that was his response. Not medical attention or any type of remorse. Nope. NEOSPORIN. 🤦🏻‍♀️ like first of all DUDEGross. 🤢Continue reading “Put a little Neosporin on it.”