3 years ago I woke up so excited and listed this super cute It’s Not Luck, It’s Oils Tee in my very new but booming Etsy shop. I sold about 10 or so with promises of delivering in plenty of time for St Patrick’s Day. I had no idea what was about to happen toContinue reading “It’s NOT Luck”
Category Archives: Domestic Violence
Before the first time.
On February 26, 2017 my once husband tossed me around our kitchen like a rag doll and beat me horrifically for almost an hour while our boys slept upstairs. The first time.Almost 2 weeks to the day he nearly killed me in front of them as he bashed my face in with his and splitContinue reading “Before the first time.”
a little bit of sunshine & a whole lot of love
It’s amazing what a little bit a sunshine + whole lotta love will do for a girl. 😌🖤✨✨✨ Today 3 years ago we got the keys to a beautiful bright home with hope that yet another game of make believe will finally make life ok. Less than 45 days later my dad and brother wereContinue reading “a little bit of sunshine & a whole lot of love”
I wish I could tell her.
Wish I could tell her. Wish I could warn her. You really think this is it.It’s not. RUN. 🖤🖤🖤 Not even 6 weeks later he beat me up so horrifically in that beautiful kitchen, I still get flashbacks and have a hard time with the memories. 2 weeks after that the blood from my faceContinue reading “I wish I could tell her.”
Oh Kiki
Keeks been sick + working for the last 2 days yet, he came home with flowers and my favorite chocolate for me, to stay thanks for taking care of him. I’m not surprised the elderberry and oils worked but I’ll never stop being in awe and wonder of this mans love and the way heContinue reading “Oh Kiki”
what if?
I often think about this when I am super appreciative of something that Kiki is doing that could seem normal or common sense to most people. I do not take any appreciation, love caring, attentiveness from him for granted, ever. I have been abandoned.I have been unloved.I have felt abuse that I don’t wish onContinue reading “what if?”
grant yourself kindness
This is one of the hardest parts of living so long in a toxic and abusive relationship. Years later and I still have this inner feeling that’s so critical and defensive. I have to calm my constant state of proving myself worthy to be loved or wanted. When you’ve been abused and abandoned by theContinue reading “grant yourself kindness”
Fukuna MatataGuy!
Testing. Testing. 2019. 🗣 If I haven’t been tossed and thrown through the emotional ringer the last couple weeks.Ouch. 🤕🤯😤 Nothing is harder than dealing with the tough shit while simultaneously being tough for the little humans around me. One day they will know ALL there is to know but today is not that day.Continue reading “Fukuna MatataGuy!”
Donut Worry, Be Happy.
I’m a cryer. I cry when I’m excited, sad, mad, happy etc etc. #alltheemotions I had taken a happier selfie but then I had a moment. A moment when my eyes filled with tears and my brain and body was overwhelmed with anxiety and fear. A moment that can be paralyzing for me. Why this happens exactlyContinue reading “Donut Worry, Be Happy.”
Put a little Neosporin on it.
Sooo after my ex almost killed me smashing his head to mine repeatedly he told me to put a “little Neosporin on it”. Like that actually happened. Minutes after seeing me bloody and broken that was his response. Not medical attention or any type of remorse. Nope. NEOSPORIN. 🤦🏻♀️ like first of all DUDEGross. 🤢Continue reading “Put a little Neosporin on it.”
